Going Back to Point Zero

After 3 months of doing nothing and torturing myself and basically everyone else around me, I decided to go back to Jogja. It was barely a hard decision because I have missed Jogja ever since I left it. I felt like going back was the right decision, and I am yet to prove it.

So many things changed, it feels familiar yet so strange. Nevertheless, I am excited to start again. Jogja will always be my ultimate choice. I mean, it would be hard if I decided to leave it years ago when my heart was broken, thank God I followed my friend’s suggestion to stay and to heal my heart here, the same place where it was shattered because now, living is as easy as breathing.

Well, the only thing different this time is I have nothing holding me from leaving nor staying. It is surely difficult because it feels like I have no use at all but well, the show must go on.

I have so many hopes lie in this place. I wish something would happen that eventually lead me to a certainty, something that I have been longing for quite some time now. For that, I vow to keep looking for anything, anything at all, to keep moving and to keep standing. God helps me with that.

Cheers to a good life!