First Thing First
I guess this is a celebration, I stopped writing last year due to a mental break-down if it is not an exaggeration term to be used to describe myself last year. I used to write on another writing platform called Tumblr. I have deleted all my accounts there last year and decided to stop writing. My notes on the phone have been piling up since. I guess, I just cannot stop writing at all. At first, I thought that I can write without posting it anywhere, I mean, why would I need strangers to read a piece about my shitty life, anyway.
I also deactivated my Instagram account because at that time I compared myself a lot with people. In my mind, everyone had their life figured out except me. It was like, everyone was settling down with everything they had and they made the best out of it, but me. I knew that I could not control what people should post, but I surely could control myself from not thinking about it, especially if I did not see it at all. I have Facebook, but I barely use it (even until now), so it was fine to keep it. I already had stopped using Twitter a few years ago, and I do not have any plan to go back to using it. Simply saying, I freed myself from social media.
Life happened, I reached the ‘okay’ point in my life. I got a scholarship to do my second-year master's degree in France. For that reason, I needed to sell my stuff because there was no way to send it back home; shipping was too expensive. I reopened back my Instagram because social media now has been a good platform to sell stuff, too. It was only 7 months, I still did not feel like going back to use it but I need something. It was an effective way though, books sold real quick, and other stuff, too. But, I was stuck with Instagram all over again. I guess I would just stick to it for a while.
Good things happened, life was good for the first month in France. I shared so many things on Instagram, and my friends said that it was a good thing that I felt normal again about social media. However, I still had the urgency to write long trashy stuff, but I did not have the platform. Instagram is not the exact platform to write things, it is more for pictures. I thought I would start lightly on Facebook. I started writing simple stuff on Facebook, and then it became addictive.
I felt like I wanted to write all over again, so I considered making a Tumblr account all over again. It would be easy because I am familiar with the platform, but I guess something new would be fun, too. So, I asked around about a platform people use to write. Medium came up, I read a couple of things here, and I was kind of afraid that this is not the right media to pour all my trashy thinking through writings. I know that most of the time, what I write is not important nor knowledgeable nor qualified enough.
However, here I am trying and writing all over again. For me, this is an achievement worth to be celebrated. Above all, I really hope upcoming days will be filled with colorful life journey worth to be written and read. Fingers crossed.
